disappointed.

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  Sometimes you wonder how you never noticed that a person is a complete and utter douche bag...
 I have come to realize recently that sometimes the people you think you are the closest to are the ones that will end up hurting you the most. I am so very hurt and disappointed by your actions, sometimes I can't believe you are the same person that I was in love with for 3 years.

 3 years of lies and cheating and doing things behind my back. And now you are doing the same things to our child. A child I could NEVER imagine hurting in any way. He deserves everything and you have given him nothing. I don't expect you to be a real father to him because you never were but at the very least I would expect for you to call and maybe ask how he is doing or maybe offer to pay for things once in awhile. Except you are doing none of these things. I haven't heard from you for days and the only things I know of your life are from useless shit you post on Facebook. Your sister telling her friend that your entire family is going on a trip to Disneyworld, one you never offered to take your son on, one you probably weren't even going to tell me about until you got home.
 It's alright though because by your being absent from our lives, we are becoming stronger people. I never thought I was capable of being a single parent, which is why I stayed with you for so long. I thought that he would take this transition hard, that not living with you would be the worst thing for him, but to my surprise (and frankly, my delight) he has shown me that he doesn't need you. He only needs me. I can be everything for this little boy. I have already proven that I don't need you to help me pay for a home or a car or for food or clothing or anything else he needs to live a decent life. I have moved on while you have regressed. You moved back in with your parents while I moved into a townhouse. Something you thought I was not capable of doing on my own. You ride a bike to class everyday while I pay for my own car. You can't even maintain a real job while going to school and I work full time and take 15 hours of classes every week while taking care of our son. You have, in your awful ways, made me realize that I am capable of doing whatever I want. I thank you for that, without you I probably never would have realized how strong I am or how strong my baby will be because of having to deal with someone like you.

sigh...

Mad Men has quickly become of my favorite shows. It is well written and styled wonderfully. It makes me think I am in the wrong generation, fashion-wise, I mean. The women are all impeccably dressed and behave so gracefully. I wish that girls of my age would learn a thing or two from this show and be a little more classy.

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 Back to the fashion, it is amazing, simply put. Betty Draper is always dressed to the nines even though she is at home almost all day. She wears heels to cook and clean in. I could never do that. In researching their outfits I found out that AMC actually has a Mad Men fashion blog devoted to the show telling you how they style everything. I love it. I also love the sets. They have inspired me to go back to school for interior design and set design so I can do something like that. Amy Wells is my hero.

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speechless.

this dress is amazing. as an avid seamstress i hope to one day be good enough to sew something as wonderful as this...

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benjamin riley.

its always fun to reminisce...

ikea tent and train set. he lovesss them. 

so much that he can't stop moving long enough for me to take a decent picture...

eating at mellow mushrooms in warner robins, ga with my mom. 

ben's first time in the ocean. he loved it. he did not want to get out even though it was freezing. 

alligator at the crab shack restaurant on tybee island.

ben was fascinated by them. i'm pretty sure he would have jumped right in there if he had been given the opportunity.

he completely ignored the big fake one that was scaring all of the other kids. 

pretty sure he is trying to figure out how to open the dishwasher in my mom's kitchen in this picture. he succeeded. 

new space.

i moved into a new townhouse and now i feel like all of my old furniture needs some sprucing up.
i still need to paint my coffee table but i'm not sure what color yet, so i have turned my attention to my couch.
i am thinking of doing something like this...

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my couch is made of similar fabric and is a dark brown color, so i think this would look great.
also if i just tack them in place then i can easily remove the doilies later if i get tired of them.

outdoor dining...

so i recently moved out of my quaint house into a charming town-home, and am now in need of cute furniture for my balcony area. i am thinking of going with a french bistro meets english cafe look.

only $80 at target

what do you think? 

Music my love.

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I love love love Inara George. 
She is a musical genius. Check out her band The Bird and The Bee. She also does some solo stuff that I love.